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for death begins with life's first breath and life begins at touch of death

"halo??...ya..kenapa tab??.....[moment of silence].....hah??...kapan???innalillahi....jadi mereka???ya ampun...." dan indah pun menutup hp nya..

"siapa yang meninggal?"tanya gw..

"temenku, kecelakaan 6 orang...hmm,,,,umm,,,,1 koma,,,,[dia diam],,,1 operasi kepala,,,dan satu lagi,,,gegar otak.."

"yang lainnya??selamat??"

"......"
"......"
"...................."


"mereka meninggal"

mengawali postingan ini kembali dengan berita yang kurang mengenakkan, sebuah berita mampir di pagi hari yang seharusnya cerah mendadak jadi suram begini, sebuah berita yang paling dihindari di sabtu pagi, dimana seharusnya hari sabtu itu merupakan hari pelampiasan kepenatan akan lima hari sebelumnya yang penuh akan kejenuhan, sebuah berita yang paling tidak diinginkan,,sebuah berita duka cita. seperti yang sudah digambarkan sebelumnya, 3 orang temen adek gw menjadi korban kecelakaan sabtu dini hari di tol halim kemarin, sepulang dari ulang tahun teman mereka, harry, di daerah mangga dua, setelah pesta ulang tahun itu usai,harry dan kelima temannya pun pulang menuju rumah masing-masing dengan mengendarai mobil salah seorang teman mereka, dan sekitar jam 2 pagi kecelakaan itu pun terjadi. kejadiaan tragis itu diawali dengan ban pecah di bagian kanan belakangan, dan kemudaian one thing leads to another,,,sampai kemudian 6 anak muda itu dibawa ke rumah sakit UKI, tapi seperti yang sudah diketahui sebelumnya kalau 3 dari 6 orang tersebut, tidak dapat terselamatkan. termasuk harry,,the birthday boy.

setelah adek gw cerita kronologis ceritanya, gw ga bisa pura-pura ga sedih atas kejadiaan itu,,padahal,,kenal dengan anak-anak itu pun nggak, tapi gw juga ikut merasakan rasa kehilangan,,apalagi pas adek gw bilang "padahal jumat paginya, aku masih papasan sama arga..eh malemnya dia udah ga ada.."..iya gw tau kematian itu pasti, tapi kapannya itu yang bikin kita penasaran, gw ga ngebayangin gimana perasaan keluarga dan orang terdekat lainnya pas salah satu anggota keluarga mereka diambil paksa begini, kematian yang serba mendadak itu yang paling ga enak, kayaknya tuh kita ga punya kesempatan buat say goodbye sama orang yang dimaksud,,hari ini masih ketawa,,,haha-hihi bareng-bareng,,eh besoknya sudah bertitile almarhum,,ngebayanginnya aja udah serem,,apalagi ngejalaninnya..

umur mereka yang masih sangat muda itu yang bikin gw mengelus dada, dan menyayangkan tragedi ini, 3 orang anak muda meninggal dalam satu malam, berikut dengan harapan, cita cita dan mimpi mereka yang belum terelisasi, arrghhh,,,it shouldn't have to be like that..seharusnya..tapi kalo sudah takdir mereka begitu..yaa mau gimana lagi..dari tahun kemarin ga bisa dibilang sedikit temen-temen gw yang ditinggal pergi sama orang terdekat mereka,, dini, ayu, ike to name a few..yang ditinggal pergi oleh ayah mereka. well,,ketika ayah-ayah mereka meninggal, i try to put myself in their shoes, dimana bukan gw yang memberi selamat duka cita, tapi yang diberi selamat duka cita, bukan gw yang tersenyum dengan mengucapkan "yang tabah ya lo, gw sekeluarga ngedoain kok semoga bokap lo diterima disisi-Nya", tapi justru gw yang menyambut tamu, berpakaian hitam,dan dengan raut muka muram justru yang bilang "maafin papa ya kalo selama ini punya salah". bukan gw yang melihat temen bokap gw yang lemah tak bernyawa dibungkus kain kafan ataupun yang tertidur damai di dalam peti mati, tapi justru gw yang menatap wajah yang sangat familiar itu, yang sudah tidak lagi menunjukan senyumnya, dan membayangkan bahwa ga ada lagi omelan-omelan pagi hari yang mengingatkan untuk sholat subuh, ga ada ocehan yang melarang untuk pulang terlalu malem, ataupun ga ada obrolan santai di ruang tv berikut guyonan jayusnya khas 70an yang sudah tidak update di era global ini, tiba-tiba saja suara yang dulu kita anggap mengganggu itu justru menjadi suara yang paling ingin didengar di seluruh semesta ini. membayangkan bahwa bukan dia yang menjadi wali nikahmu atau orang yang membawamu berjalan dialtar di hari pernikahan nanti,,dia ga akan ada esok hari, lusa, bulan depan, tahun depan,,,dia pergi selamanya..ya gw membayangkan hal-hal tersebut. 3 kali bokap temen-temen gw itu meninggal, tiga kali pula gw menempatkan diri gw di posisi mereka, mencoba apa rasanya kehilangan, hanya untuk sehari saja, tapi untungnya pas gw membuka pintu rumah, dia masih ada, ocehannya masih menggema dirumah, dan ruang tv masih ramai dengen guyonan khasnya, meja makan masih lengkap berikut dengan orang-orangnya.intinya? BERSYUKUR!! hmmm,,,well,,, death isn't always about sadness and grief kok, sometimes you have to watch death right in front of your eyes, so you can appreciate life even more..

gw, selaku alumni Al-Azhar Kemang Pratama angkatan VIII turut berduka cita atas meninggalnya 3 orang adik kelas ku, Arga Madira, M Harry Hardiko, Rahardian Rachmat Rizky, semoga amal ibadah mu diterima disisi-Nya, dan untuk keluarga yang ditinggalkan smoga diberikan ketabahan. Amin..

-arga,,see you there ga-




ini foto rahar yang gw comot di fesbuk,,(arghh,,,muda sekali dia ini), buat vania,,,hmpf,,,,yang sabar ya..ini sudah rencana-Nya..


(sorry gw belum dapat fotonya harry,,)



RIP ya adik-adikku..




-P.U.T.R.I-

that's what he said


“We live in a society of victimization, where people are much more comfortable being victimized than actually standing up for themselves.”


-Marilyn Manson-



-P.U.T.R.I-






less words more pictures

Benjamin Franklin once said lost time is never found again".i just nodded my head when i saw the quote, so true?isn't it??and i just wonder how fast time flies, it feels like yesterday i watched muse concert, not on february 2007 instead!!the last new year's eve i just spent with all my big family, eating french fries, duren and cocacola (i called it kuliner tabrak lari) while my niece and cousin cheering with their fireworks,,why time flies so quickly when you surrounded with happiness and laughter??rasanya pengen balik ke dua minggu kemarin. gw yakin banyak setuju..ayo kita ajukan request ke yang punya waktu!!lho kok??

actually there's a lot of things i need to share with you, but as Andy Warhol said “Isn't life a series of images that change as they repeat themselves?”,,and speaking about images, i want to put some of them to complete this post. so i hope you enjoy.

they say 2009 it's gonna be like..



plan crash accident!hate to say this, but looking back to our track record,,it's possible that this horrible accident would happen in the future. hmpf. wake up Indonesia!!

economic circumstances getting worse day by day!!


natural disaster!!

jobless everywhere!!


those terrible things maybe effect you one way or another. and perhaps,,will make you look like this..when you've got so much trouble, the weight of the world hanging right on your shoulder, don't you just,,wanna,,,,scream??(which well-expressed by this women)or lying on the floor,,mentally and physically exhausted, cover your face with your arm and then fall asleep,,escape from reality for a while like this girl..


or just like andrea hirata once said,,"isolated by choice",then make your mind suddenly shut for seconds, feeling absolutely tired!!like this guy..


i just finished reading one of farida susanty's novel, and there is one sentence that intrigued me, she says that "someone in mad is someone who shows her personality in the most honest way". so true isn't it?every person has different way to express their anger, sometimes screaming is the best medicine, but not for this women, she prefer silence instead.then my friend told me once that "from failure you learn. from success??not so much..."and then i simply just smile when he finished the sentence.

but life is like a Tv show, and we are the actors, we play our part which already well-written by the writer, we follow direction by the director, then we act, we laugh, we cry, we angry, all of these already there in the script, so rather than worrying about your life, sometimes you should sit back, relax and enjoy the show and see where ever it takes you.


because deep down inside,,you always know that you still got people like them..the one who can put the smile on your face at the end of a long-tiring day..



and them, the best stress killer ever..


and of course,,,god,,,the most gracious and the most merciful.



they are the one who can change..

this...
into this



or this furious expression..


to this irresistible smile like his



because you know exactly that..


and here comes my wish list in 2009..

i hope,,i still can feel whatever she's feeling,,




or be able to relaxing my mind and refreshing my soul,and feel peace for a while like this guy..


or [again] escape reality, and having a real damn good sleep like this young girl.



or dancing in the moonlight, watching time pass us by , forgetting all the problem with the one so called significant other.


they said,,life is about choices..




so you better make a damn good one..just like Dr. Seuss said “Today is your day! Your mountain is waiting. So... get on your way.”


the point is,,,



u only live once, don't let others control your life. and i found an interesting quoted by tom boddett, he said “The difference between school and life? In school, you're taught a lesson and then given a test. In life, you're given a test that teaches you a lesson.”



happy new year 2009. hope this year bring the best luck for all of you guys.

amin!!

so,,i guess i'll leave you with one of my favorite japanese proverb..

"vision without action is a day dream, action without vision is a nightmare"

it's your life. u decide. u choose. u act!


catch ya later.

-P.U.T.R.I-

it's arrived!!!



thought today it's gonna be a boring day, but look what i found lying on my table right before i walked out the door, i took a glance and there you are.Divortiare 2nd edition with extended pages too.

inscribed and signed by the author herself, ika natassa. she's giving 5 copies of the Divortiare 2nd edition for free, but just for those who already make a review about the book, and she read my review. and right before 2008 over, one of other winner, Quinie, told me that i won it too,,frankly i was kinda surprise when i saw my name mention as one of lucky 5.hehe.sooo,,,ya,,here i am,,holding divortiare 2nd edition.hehehe.

since i already have Divortiare novel before ika natassa generously gave me one,so right now i have 2 divortiare books on my bookshelf that's why i've been thinking to give away one of them for free. so you can enjoy the book as much as i am. interested, anyone??



-P.U.T.R.I-
 

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